What it's like following your dreams.

What it's like following your dreams.

I can describe it in two words, starting with exhausting. It is quite literally the most exhausting thing I have ever done and I'm a two-time mother. It takes a ridiculous amount of energy; you have to work harder and longer, well beyond the point of what some would consider a "normal" day. For me, I'm still working a full-time job. I have another side hustle in addition to parenting, being a decent wife, and maintaining a home. I also don't have buckets of cash to front load my business making all the efforts as efficient as possible or to outsource tasks allowing more time for myself. I am it. And the resources I already have are it. Therefore, the exhaustion is real.

so why do it?

Because of the other "e" word. Exhilarating.

Believing in myself is the one thing I have always been good at. I quite literally believe I can accomplish any dream I allow myself to imagine. I have made life choices, practical choices and choices I don't know that I would choose again. All, of which have led me to where I am. I found myself altered by the events of 2019 just like so many others. The standout though, was the realization of the burning desire to love what I do day in and day out. Photography fell in my lap. It was a fun and casual hobby I was blessed with. Boudoir fell in my lap too. Typically, I'd bash the social media madness, but I don't know that I would have even discovered the boudoir scene without it. That is where I truly saw what exhilaration was. It is difficult to put into words how incredible I feel when I get to reveal an image to one of you beautiful ladies and seeing your face completely light up. Seeing your self-love and acceptance and grace written right there on your face.. It is the best high there is. I will chase that exhilaration forever.

There is also such beauty in the group I'm fostering on fb. There are women I know well, women I know somewhat and women I hope to know soon. The community is building itself and there is so much positivity that is just crucial to add to the flow in our screen time. There is an abundance of uplifting and encouraging comments. Strangers cheering each other on. Women genuinely in each other's corner knowing we all face so many of the same challenges and daily struggles. I love seeing the inspiration whether it be from a member post, or the bravery of an image shared, if it helps another - it is worth it.

I believe I can create amazing photographs, memories, experiences, and moments. By enriching the lives of women, I am enriching my own life and the life of my family. I carry myself better knowing that I feel called upon to help women love themselves in every way possible. Following my dreams is actually what gets me through each day.

I truly hope everyone's heart is touched by a dream they can't help but chase.

sincerely, exhausted & exhilarated.